Saturday, March 22, 2008

One of many anniversaries

We are finally together after almost three months. It is my turn to travel to Montreal to spend some time with Mike. Even though the temperature is below zero and the snow is piled up to the roofs, I am happy to be here.
Sometimes it is only when the crisis is over and there is emotional safety again that your mind and body can succumb to the recent stress and strain. Now I feel like I want to be allowed a little break down- to collapse and cry it out. The last few months have been hard. It takes a lot of emotional energy to not miss someone; to keep your spirits up and your attention out as you go along your daily routine. It is not always as easy as it appears to fill the time with activity so that your mind doesn't get too much idle time to feel the pain of lonliness. Therefore these intermittent visits are so very important to revive that energy and give each other strength to cope.
Yesterday was the fifth anniversary of the day we first set eyes on each other. Certainly a day of celebration. We had a very special dinner at a lovely Thai restaurant. Despite the cold and snow we kept our minds focused on how fortunate we were to meet that day and that we have travelled these five years together.
Over the next few days we will add memories to our bank. We will brave the cold as two bodies are warmer than one. It is these memories that will help us through our next separation.